1:30 PM Wednesday, February 8, 2023

This youtube channel
1:43 PM Sunday, February 5, 2023

I am not appalled by anything I see on this world wide web anymore. Is it bad? It feels like once you've spent enough time online, you've practically seen it all, or at least variations. There's a ton of effort to censor stuff now, especially on larger platforms. But even so, stuff slips through the cracks or we have our moments of morbid curiosity. Not that I like seeing certain things or actively seek it out. By the way, I speak of things most would generally find "appalling". I'm not listing anything specifically but I wanted to talk about that since I saw something earlier today. Even the people we associate with can be doing stuff we have no idea of. I used to know somebody who would purposely share shocker stuff for kicks. Not sure why I associated with them for so long. I really don't want to see depictions of certain things. But it's never "too much". I believe this is desensitization, although I'm not really sure how much credibility that theory has. If it is credible, then seeing something with my own eyes is likely to elicit a different reaction. Different environments, different reactions. Wonder if it says anything about our character. Food for thought.

12:13 PM Sunday, February 5, 2023

3:35 AM Sunday, January 29, 2023

7:12 PM Friday, January 27, 2023

The Content The Masses Crave

9:13 PM Tuesday, January 24, 2023

Yue sound reference

Dappoyo sound reference

Some day I would like to create character reference sheets for all of my main characters. I am finding I am inconsistent with design aspects. It would make drawing easier for anyone who would be interested in drawing them as well. It's a lot of work, and needs to be of utmost quality. I wonder when I will have the time to do so. I would like to use the opportunity to build upon their character as well. Some lore stuff maybe. The skydev universe expands; it's quite incredible what can be stored within one's own mind isn't it?

1:56 AM Friday, December 30, 2022

I've always wanted to disappear. Tired of so many things. Tired of all the noise. Tired of all of the things I shouldn't need to care about. Tired of dealing with things I shouldn't need to deal with. I am not hurt, but I feel at my wits end. I'm thinking about disappearing. I set time aside, I don't get distracted, I don't talk about people behind their backs, I try to make sure everyone is heard, and to put others at ease. I expect that of others. Yet sometimes it feels like I am expecting too much. I don't really have outlets for my frustrations, yet they must be expressed. I want to disappear. Be more mindful of the people around you. Be more considerate of the people around you. I will disappear. I wish we could just enjoy our life experience. To be born into something that we can handle better. But we're not so lucky. I'm not so lucky. It's okay, I will make it work. I'm disappearing.

9:24 PM Thursday, January 19, 2023